To; Choi JunHong
I know that you will never read this but I still write this letter to let out all of my feeling that I been keep all of this time not even my best friend know about it. The first time I saw you is during your never give up era when I first saw you I think you cute but I never know what your name(that time I don’t know who bang and who zelo because that time I has less interest in you and bang). Then, during the time you debut as a group B.A.P I think you are very cool with your LTE rap but at both of the era I never fall in love with you because I never know you that well. During your power era every things change I start to like you and then you ruin my life and also my bias list and now you on top of it. Congratulations because with all of your hard work now you are no 1 in my heart.
Now let me list down why the reason you are no 1 in my heart:-
Because you look good in every hair colour
Because of your really - really good LTE rap
Because of the way when you talk
Because of your eye (when you smile (eye smile) when you do the blink blink think just cute)
Because of your lip (when you smile and when bite them It’s just so cute)
Because of your kind heart
I know that I don’t know you in person and all I know about you is from all the video I watch but l believe you a grate person. when everyone around me say that you just put on an act because there is camera around you. I never believe or listen to people when they talk something bad about you to me coz I know that not you. Now let’s skip all the bla bla things and just go to the main point of why I writhing this letter.
One day I was sleeping in the evening to take some nap then suddenly I have a dream of you and the whole B.A.P and for your information it’s not easy for me to get a dream and most of all its very - very hard I mean very hard for me to dream about an idol but that evening was not as I expected I dream about you and all the other B.A.P member. In the dream you and all the member having a fan signing event I don’t know ware but I remember really well how the dream go its start when me and my friends get to know that B.A.P is having fansgin event and I try everything to go to the event but know matter what I do I don’t get to attend it so at the end I told my friends that I will try to meet you after the event but at the end its all the same no matter what I do I just can’t meet you at the end of the dream I was you and all the member walk towards the car during that point I know that it will be the end and I was so scared I tell myself to wake up before I watch you leave. Then at that moment woke up and cry by myself on the bed all alone and I though to myself why I can’t even meet and hold you even in my dream and that evening all I do was cry on my mom bed since I was sleeping in her room. That night I sleep with my mom since my dad is no around. It was late night and my mother ask me to go to sleep since the next day I have to go to school because I have exam and its mean I can’t skip school. I told my mom that I can’t sleep because I scared that what I dream that evening will come again then my mother ask what the thing that I dream and all I answer I nothing because I know that she won’t comfort me but she will make thing worst so I decided not to tell her. After I tell her nothing she start to guessing things and she said
“why zelo have a girldfriend”
“dong woon leave you”
“then what how can I help you if you don’t tell”
By that word of her I just tell her that “no matter how hard I try to get close to him we just get distance” then she laugh at me and she say “of coz because you are here and he in Korea he a celebrity and I just a fan It’s like a young handsome prince and a slave” by her word and comparing a tears start to fall so I turn to face the wall and listen to some music using my earplug then just cry in silence hoping that what my mom tell me is not true and one day I get to meet you in person. All of the time I keep asking myself the same thing over and over again that is why am I so afraid to lost you when you not even mine.